We had to put our black (technically smoke) Persian down on Monday. This is the 2nd pet I've have to put down , but this one has been really rough. I had her for 12 years as well. She slept between my legs almost every night and when my ex and I broke up and l moved out of our house, my ex let me take her which helped my transition from my home of 7 years to a new home and life. Just having her there made it feel like home to me, despite it being brand new and being on my own. It was gut wrenching watching her be put down, but I felt somewhat ok after because we hung out with some friends and had some drinks so I was preoccupied. the last 2 days though I have just been in a funk and it sucks. I start thinking about her and it chokes me up. It's probably a combo of this and the fact i am recovering from neck surgery and being cooped up and unable to work out. But she was an incredibly special cat and we miss her and will always love her. Sorry for the long winded post, but it's been on my mind these last few days and feels good to get it out. This is her on the left
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So sorry for your loss, friend.
Judging by your emotional words, I can guarantee she lived an incredible life with an awesome owner. It's so hard to say goodbye to a pet. They are family. Not just any family. They kind of family that doesn't judge, want or need anything from you. Just love. All the time. Never an argument or a bad mood. Just chillin' every night waiting for mom or dad to get home. I feel your pain. Even though it doesn't make it hurt any less, you are the only one who knew what was best for her.